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Monday, July 16, 2007 ♥21:17

you want to know how it feels?
being so FUCKED up.
& the BEST thing is.
no one knows. NO ONE.
best kan?
euu cried a lake of tears,
do all sorts of stuffs to prove to others you're alright.
but inside you're ALL TORN APART!
it's all DRAMA.
you act out stuffs to convinced others.
hoho~ hanna.
you've make such a good act.
BRAVA!

hey guys.
what's the matter now?
we're tering apart.
like AGAIN!
i mean i want THE BELOHZX back BADLY!
but now.
people have to change in life.
SO CHANGE.
it's just a little something about you that we're unhappy with.
we want the OLD you back.
just like how i want the old ME back.
i mean.
after what we've been through.
this is how it's going to end?
NO.
im NEVER gonna make that happen.
NEVER ohkay?
we have to just be together to matter what.
COME BACK BELOHZX!
shove aside the boys in your life.
i know boys means the world.
yeaps.
it does to me to.
but friends are more important kan?
boys are just something euu want to get involved to second to friendship.
right?
im NOT saying euu cnt go look for boys.
euu can laa.
but berpada-pada laa sikit makcik oi.
jangan luper dunia kay?
i know euu might not be happy with me.
but m stating my point of view.
im sure euu want to know about this.

rightt..
today.
Jurongville Npcc went to Home Team Academy(HTA) for our .22 revolver dry shoot.
i mean.
yea!
A REAL REVOLVER!
GEREKS kan?
today's just a dry practice.
means euu don't use bullets to shoot.
it's just to get yourself used to the revolver&the sequences to FIRE!
ahah(:
i looove it laa.
like seriously.
I CNT WAIT FOR THE LIVE SHOOT on the 24 laa seyy.
ahah(:
hope i can aim&fire well!
macam COOL gitu kan pegang revolver.
like real policeman-in my case, policewoman like that.
wednesday will be the next dry practise.
at least there's something to be looking forward to right?
yeaps!
cool laa.

OH SHIT HANNA! see what you;ve done again.euu ruined your own life again. what the HELL is happening to you?! euu hurt him again right? & euu don't realised it until euu know he isn't happy with you. hey hanna! you don;t go around hurting people's feelings anytime you like. if it's hi you LOVE then DON'T hurt him. don;t try to be TOO perfect. it's gonna hurt him.& get your mind over your emotions. don't just do things ikut perasaan. klakar ke aper? after all he's done to you? this is how euu repay him? what kind of girlfriend are you?! PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER! YOU;RE STRONG! BELIEVE ME.

~NO IM NO LONGER STRONG! LEAVE ME ALONE!
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Thursday, July 12, 2007 ♥15:46


hee-
im currently partying in the computer lab laa seyy!
ahah(:
its ULTRA MAXIMUM FUN!
well.
not exactly laa.
im doing some kind of CSSP CAMP presentation i attend the june holidays.
ohkay.
maybe not only me laa.
but together with SOFIA&NADHILAH!
my ICE CREAM&LOLLIPOP!
wheee~
ahah(:
ini macam rumah kiter seyy.
gereks to the MAX!

i've done my part in the presentation.
so that's why im here BLOGGING!
yeaps people.
yang the previous entry.
don't bother to mull over it alright?
it's just not worth it laa.
anw.
im in good terms with my sweetheart.
just hope it will just remain like that laa kan?
but i still miss him every second of my life laa!

heee-
NOW IM OBSESSED WITH ALY&AJ laa!
kan!
da jadi macam LOLLIPOP AKU!
ahah(:
it's like sehati sejiwa like that laa kan.
CUTE LAA SEYY!

kiter kan tak der keje lain.
buat nickname baru baru!
ahah(:
aku nak introduce kawans kawans aku yg manismanis selalu!
LOLLIPOP! is NADHILAH!
SWEETS! is HANNA!
MARSHMALLOW! is AZLIN!
ICE-CREAM! is SOFIA!
and we're proudly called CANDYLADIES!

ahah(:
macam so goooood to EEAATT laa!
all so YUMMAYE!

FUHH!
banyak jugak yang aku type laa kan?
ahah(:
k.da.
aku da malas nak type lagi.
& im freaking cold.
i can barely move my fingers.
smuer da kaku rabak!
now. WHERE'S SOFIAA!
I WANT TELL HER TO KEEP THE TEMPERATURE DOWN! (:
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Sunday, July 08, 2007 ♥18:39
uhm.
it's been a while since i blog la kan?
im like missing blogging.
seeing people updating and typing LONGLONG post
made me jealous and want to BLOG!

ALOT have been going on recently.
but im like LAZY to the TOP to blog about it laa.
ahah(:
fahamfaham ajer la.
makin lamer makin malas la kan?

uhm.
i went for ATC a week ago.
Friday 29 June to Sunday 1 July.
at Pulau Ubin.
IT ROCKS TO THE MAX LAA!
i meet nicenice people whom i miss them already.
&i love every piece of the camp except for PT.
which is somewhat TOUGH like eff lorh!

I've been to alot of camps uh during the June holidays.
Including the ATC it's 3.
hah-
not that much uh.
but still.
The first one was the NPCC ANNUAL CAMP in school.
as i last posted.
then THE BEST CAMP I'VE EVER BEEN TO...
CSSP CHALLENGE V.
it's 4 days 3 nights at Old Police Academy.
17 schools participate in it.
& im GLAD im in PANTHER 7!
it was the BEST GROUP laa.
now i miss the WONDERFUL people i met during the camp!
namely. Hidayah.Misliana&Joanna.
PSYCHOS!
ahah(:
GOOD TIMES&MEMORIES!
i shall never forget!
i want to go CSSP again la seyy!
macam GEREK GITU!
& i missed the group outing laa bacause i was off for ATC.
what a CAMP FREAK!

Currently im all stressed out&at the same time loving it.
is the Fusion Dance thingy.
i admit la.
it's been tiring.
& ALOT of things are sacrificed.
TIME.EFFORT.ENERGY. even FRIENDS!
i hope its all worth it.
only one thing.
i somewhat ignored my darlinggs for the dance.
im stupid.
i know.
but still.
i want to keep this friendship together.
and at the same time i want her to change.
i mean.
i might sound like old times.
im NOT taking sides.
its just that.
i think im better with who im hanging out with currently.
im also happy hanging out with you guys.
but i cannot divide myself into two right?
im not like some SPONGE.
hah-
make an effort to change & just follow us around instead of just keeping to yourself.
i mean i don't mind.
the more the merrier kan?
I WANT OLD TIME BACK!
like seriously.
kan wasted if we've been friends for such a LONG period of time.
and then now kiteorang divided.
think it over.
i dunnoe laa.
but im kindda tired.
staying back every day to dancedance.
& the only reason i agree to perform was because
i want to make 2C proud of Pure Serenity,the 2C dancers.
see we got a NAME! (:
ahah(:
i was last minute.
so we just pick up any words we can find and match them together!

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT HAVE BEEN GOING ON WITH ME!
i got mad easily.
i fought with my parents& just ignore them.
got pissed with them.lie to them.
got somewhat RUDE to them recently.
hanna!
what's going on man?!
my attitude SUCKS laa!
i want to change it for the better.
where's Martina when i need her.
i need a shoulder to cry on now.
but i'd rather cry to myself to something personal.
i don't feel like sharing it.
im like falling apart and at the same time
try to pick up the pieces of me
and put them together.
AAHH!
what's up with me now?
im like the DEVIL to my parents eyes already laa.
i mean.
yea.
i CHANGED!
HANNAA!!
i've been hurting people day in day out.
ALOT i guess.
& i hurt people more everytime i tried to be perfect.
i might look SUPER happy.
that's just because im hiding my sorrow.
and trying my best to hide it.
i dunnoe why im typing this laa.
where's the OLD HANNA?!
I WANT HER BACK!
i want back YESTERDAY because i HATE TODAY & idunnoe how
WORST it may get TOMORROW.


i dunnoe what have been going on with me recently,sweetheart.it's not that i don't want to treat you right&impress euu.i really want to.but im all jumble up.i dunnoe who i am anymore.im all stress up laa. YES. ive missed you alot.but its just that with all this thing happening to me i HAPPY things like before UPSETS me the most. give me some time sweetheart. to be myself again and put the pieces back together. im real truly sorry.& I STILL LOVE YOU. it hasn't change.
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